There are many things that could (or may) be accomplished in this new year 2011. For one thing, it's an odd-number year. I seem to like those best. There is a lot of accomplishment that can be achieved in an odd-number year. However, in this odd-number year, I will be 68 years old. That's an even-number age, and I'm not fond of even numbers. I don't know why. Maybe it's because I was born in an odd year (1943), maybe it's because I am ambidextrous, maybe it's because I, unlike many others, recognize mental illness when I see it, and maybe it 's because the reasoning makes as much sense as the Republicans telling us that we can have no deficit while giving a metric fuck-ton of money to the already-wealthy and never raising taxes, at the same time supporting two wars (more wars to come) and beefing up the defense budget.
For all of those who do not think me worthy of being in their company or having me on their long list of "friends," I want to start this new year 2011 by saying "I don't care." Any memory of you or kindness toward you has been kept alive by virtue of my brain power, my energy, my passion, my will and desire, and my love. I can pull the plug on that considerable personal effort. I won't expend any more of my energy, thoughts, good wishes, love, or higher consciousness on you who disdain me. Take your dislike of me and let it give you cancer instead of giving me grief. I no longer care. The new year 2011 will be one of not caring.
Before my beloved readers become concerned about that sudden attitudinal change in me, allow me to explain that it's not that I will be apathetic, uncompassionate, or unfeeling this year. It's that I will no longer internalize the negative vibrations, vitriol, indifference, and uncaring that have permeated the vicious, insane, unkind political and personal atmosphere, as I've perceived it in the past several years, created by others who are self-absorbed, stupid, and not worthy of my loving and/or mindful support.
I no longer care. I will use that energy and mindfulness to support something of value to me from now on. 2011 will be a good year.
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I read with great interest your musings on the new year, 2011. I think you have something there, particularly regarding your decision to cease and desist allowing the negative vibrations, bad karma, mean-spirited individuals and groups in your world and our world be even allowed to exist in your life. I want to speak up right now and say I am extremely proud to be your friend, and I cannot imagine how anyone would see you other than the caring, honest, loving, generous spirit that you are. Why is it that some people feel justified to say hurtful and hateful things about others? It seems that this is all the "rage" today, ranting and raging, bitching and moaning, complain, complain, complain. It would be so much more fruitful to find the good in everyone and every situation and go forward from there. Let's try to start every dialogue with a solution rather than a criticism. If everyone would concentrate on moving forward in a positive direction rather than backward in a downward spiral, the world would be a better place. Thank you, dear friend, for your thought-provoking posts and challenges. I am truly blessed to know you.
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